God this is horrible, our first argument and it wasn’t even a stupid tiff it was a big argument I’m so sorry I feel awful. I’ve fucked things up now haven’t I? I love you and I’ve already messed up :(

Gonna be productive tonight and do some more drawing, got myself a sketchbook and some sketching pencils, then tomorrow gonna die my hair back black and probably do more drawing. 

Gah I need to man up, not looking forward to meeting up with the ex boyfriend on Monday to exchange stuff but I’ve been putting it off for too long considering its nearly two months since we broke up as well, just hope he doesn’t grill me about my new man…

worst thing knowing there’s nothing you can do to help someone you care about, I care too much but I’d rather care too much than not at all. 

I wish I could read your mind to know if you think the same, am I falling too fast whilst your not falling at all? We’re both just as bad as each other for clearly hiding what we feel from each other so does that mean you feel the same but too scared to say as well? This is confusing…

You’ve no idea how much you mean to me but everytime I want to tell you my mouth chokes up and the words won’t come out, I got excited last night when I thought some words were going to be said but then you seemed to hold back, or am I getting excited over nothing? Or do you think the same as me? Only time will tell I guess, still one month today my god that’s flown by…